The Letters Q and R
The past few days have been crazy. My friends Jeremy's funeral was Saturday and then the whole thing about the headaches. I have had headaches almost constantly for the last two weeks. Talk about making you crazy! I went to the doctor on Friday and he said it was allergies. He confirmed my fear that the allergies here in Southeast Texas have been worse than usual this year. Anyway he gave me some medicine and this time the medicine is worse than the cure. It makes me physically ill. Well I let him know that he said there was nothing else he could give me and that I would just have to make do the best I can. That on top of everything else going on right now (my job ending, worrying about paying bills,..etc.) I wanted to quit. I haven't felt good and it's affecting every other area of my life-nothings quite as good as it should be. From my blog post to my house keeping,to my work. I want to crawl up under the covers and not come out until everything better. I think I qualify for a mental mental health day or two-or more. Then in the quiet I hear a still small voice say-"Have you talked to me about what's going on?" Knowing the answer to that question I cried. "I didn't have time or feel like talking to you about it!" I began to cry. Yet again it seemed like I had abandoned Christ when the storm came. Instead of clinging to Him all the more. I quiescently sat and prayed. I felt Christ peace wrap it's arms around me. I saw a very in my bible reading that I had never seen before. It said.This is what the Sovereign LORD, the Holy One of Israel, says: "In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength, but you would have none of it. .(Isaiah 30:15)
Repentance and rest is you salvation. Repentance-doing a total 180 away from the sin you have in your life. He's calling the Iseralites to get real! I think he's talking about physical rest but more importantly I think He's talking about mental rest. How many times are we sitting somewhere doing something yet our mind is a million miles away thinking about something else. God wants us to tune everything out and just listen and rest in Him. In quietness and trust is your strength. Quietness huh? Me quiet? Lord do you know your talking to a motor mouth about being quiet!? However, I was surprised when I looked at the definition of the word quiet. One of it's meanings is
free from disturbing thoughts, emotions, etc.; mentally peaceful: a quiet conscience. Free from disturbing thoughts? How could I do that? By prayer and keeping my mind on things above. Slowing down and not getting bogged downby our culture. And trust, if we are quiet I believe that we can hear from Him better and hearing Him helps us to trust more.
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